Hello, My name is Molly. This is my first entry to "Love" Datingish and I have a story to tell.  I've been with my bf for 2 years and 4 months now. We never had sex ( Yes, you guessed right, Xangans/Datingishans & etc. I'm a Christian Catholic. Ha.). We found other ways to make love though ,but now I'm starting to lose interest from him each day as  he deeply "makes" love towards me. I try to avoid making love with him so I can keep this relationship fresh. He loves me a lot and he has never been unfaithful towards me ever. I know what you're thinking...

You: Why wont you talk to the guy? Relationships is about waiting for each other and communicating with each other right?
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You: What is wrong with you?! It's not like he's lacking love...what are you trying to say?
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You: Dump him... you're wasting his time by dragging it on!
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Someone who cares: So tell us, what is your problem really? Why do you feel and act this way?

Why Doctor Therapist,
I have my reasons. I know we've together for a long time. The fact that the 1st year we didn't touch each other as much (physically), it made me crave for him so much that it kills me ( such as holding hands/hugs & simple things like that ...not sex -_- I knew you were thinking that!). In my opinion our 1st/2nd year was the best two years of my life, we were so simple. We had picinics , fly kites, go jogging, and even went star grazing, but now since this upcoming year... he got agressive (horny). Not in a bad way,  he wasn't violating me in any way. All he wants to do now is bring me over to his house so we can make love to me. I can tell he loves it a lot , but I love the simplicity of how we use to be. Why are we growing up so fast? It's not like we're under 18 or anything , but the fact that we aren't married makes it so uncomfortable for us to be fooling around like that. I know I could of stop him when he attempts to make a move on me but who refuses love from their parteners? It's the best feeling in the whole wide world for all those that haven't fallen in love yet or lost that feeling of loving someone. It is truly amazing I guarantee my life on it!

You: Then what's the problem?

Me: Ahh yes... the after taste of course.

I don't know but since this year started I tried to avoid it but he touch me in a way it's hard to repel. His rutty hands on my shoulders gives me midnight drools and the way he touches my face as if he was painting on a canvas. I don't want to sound pessimist, but how do I know for a fact I'm marrying this man? The fact that I don't think about these kind of things kills me. By this, I mean I never thought about married ever! It just never cross my mind and if it will one day , then I'll deal with it at that time and moment. For now, I rather just be with this S.O until we're ready. He loves me so ... I don't want to break his heart.

I know his "Dick" is starting to take over. But I can see it from his point of view. I know guys loves snuggling with their girlfriends ( it works the other way around also). It's so sensational that it takes away all your troubles and you feel at bliss.

I'm counting down the days that I do not get tempt in making love so much with him and perhaps stick with hugging and just light kissing. Holding hands is alway fun too. I just don't want to break his heart when I lose interest of him. He is such a beautiful masterpiece, in which; I will continue to hang him on my personal wall.

Questions:Have you ever wished you just had one S.O? I know probably most of you would say, " There were some things I wish I can take back but I have no regrets." Really, it's so cliche. I know you guys make regret because at the bottom of your brain somewhere ...it cross your mind as something you wish you could share with your last ( A.K.A husband, lover , final ...etc) but instead you shared it with someone else first. Have you ever feel dirty after being with a lot of S.O? Do you have morals? How do you feel in your relationships? What is one the things (anything!) that bothers you that your S.O would not understand , even though you explain it in everywhere or language? Explain...Leave a comment or a rant about anything you have to say about your S.O , good or bad?

[Edit:]
 I need your comments so I can learn to reflect because I really don't know where I'm going with this relationship. If I decide to talk to him about this , I don't know how I should address it to him. You just don't know how he is, but he's not a bad bf either. I rate him number 8 out of 10 ( 10 being the highest ) out of the "good bf" scale.

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